Taking the "little things" for Granted

It is stunning how many "little things" have been effected by this. Some people have told me that they struggle with some of my "little things" on a daily basis, but for me these "little things" are totally not my norm.

I don't really recall much from the hospital or the drive from the hospital to the rehab facility, but my husband drove by our neighborhood on the way and asked if I knew which house was ours. We've only lived here a little over a year and most of my disappearing memories are anything current to probably about 6-7 years ago. I have been getting some memories back but there are still big holes I am missing.
I kept asking about work but thought I was still working at my last employer which I left in May 2014. I forgot about all of the new businesses we had in town and the street changes made. Making the turn from Kingshighway to go towards the new businesses across the highway scared me the first time. I thought my husband was just randomly driving off the road. Haha! And, holy roundabouts...why are we not using stoplights again??! (sorry, ignore my tangent) I forgot what foods I like. I forgot what clothes I have. I forgot where everything is (at home, at work, on the computer, etc). I forgot how to cook. I forgot where certain buttons are in my vehicle (no, I'm not driving but I like to control my heat). I forgot how to operate my phone, what apps are called, where I've put them on my homescreens. I forgot how to get to places. I forgot where things are in stores we shop at. I forgot how to get to our church but once we arrived and worship started I saw people clapping so I tried to clap along and realized I didn't know how to do it and couldn't figure out how to tell my brain what to do. I love to sing but I couldn't remember words to songs and once I did I couldn't sing it fast enough to keep up. It's difficult to remember what things are called and even just words in general sometimes when I'm having a conversation. And, it's really difficult to remember names even though I can normally recognize that I know a person by their face. Timelines are also very difficult. I've been having issues lately with retaining new memories. Although, I can usually remember that I've had a conversation about something but cannot remember who I had that conversation with. So, I feel like I'm repeating things and have to keep asking if I've already told someone something.

And, I know this is irrelevant to the blog title, but other than my husband, my grandma is my ROCK!! At almost 88 years old and even with getting a new cell phone in the middle of all of this, she continues to text me daily. She is amazing and I LOVE HER SO MUCH! It literally brings me to tears to think of a future without her. Hayden is always asking me when we can go visit next. We've been thinning our busy schedules since all of this has happened so visiting more often is one of our main goals.

I hope all of you aren't taking the little things for granted. They are what makes you who you are. My husband noted how I've been telling everyone that I love them and while I didn't notice it I am so grateful to be able to say that and just taking everything day by day I don't want to have any regrets.
So, Love. Love deeply.